Deception: A Quest for real love:

                          (Same old story with a different perspective, the perspective of a modern woman)

 Who can define love?

People in the world can have philosophical views and can affiliate her plight with a girl who did not follow the customary social settings and got isolated in her destiny but for her, it was only pious love. She gave it to her Kanha and got a deception in love. Her body was still hot with his love. In her body still, her Kanha was living and she used to have Raas with him in her dreams.

But then the gloomy picture of the reality, Modern Kanha, who actually deserted her and left her all alone, was not real Lord Krishna, at all. According to me, it was just her innocence, extremity of passion, and emotions that she got deceived.

 When Love is accepted by society then it can result in Love Marriage. When Love is one-sided and is not responded is still at least it is accepted as a pure form of love, but when it is not responded gives anguish and endless agony.

 When intimacy is both-sided and one person proves a cheat then what it is?

 All other people have ways to define; they have the power to explain but they can only be mere spectators, can’t live that piousness of love, and are mere spectators. Ironically in our society, things are decided and explained by those, who don’t own it even.

 So let`s start with a story, which made me wake up. Yes, I was just bearing that pain in my dreams and now only at 1:43 Pm Friday 2017, have got up to write this love-tale which I am writing after coming from Mathura- Vrindavan. My family had a journey towards Mathura- Vrindavan and my heart had only one quest… Was Krishna still alive in Vrindavan? My God did not answer me this question but I had a nightmare. A feeling of anguish I had felt in my body like the heroine of my story `Radha’ might have. I live my stories, I feel like the antagonists and protagonists of my stories.

 Story of Radha:

 Radha had been in love with Kanha, but now she was just like a stone, feeling less. Was this the end of contemporary love? Those who say Lord Krishna loved Radha and claim to certify that love was pious should also read my story from the perspective of contemporary society. My Kanha is not Lord Krishna and my Radha is not Radha Rani of Vrindavan because I don’t want to hurt anybody`s religious feelings and just take the names from ancient times to prove how people are spoiling Lord Krishna`s name.

  My contemporary Radha personally did not like to speak lies. For her truth and innocence were the ways of Godliness. She met Kanha at her coaching classes. Kanha was a boy living in a small village Shamgarh(Distt: Karnal). Radha was 22 Years old gal and she had seen Kanha when she was engaged with Gopal. Her family had decided everything but for her, it was not a marriage. She did not want to have that bond in which she did not know a person. She wanted to have a strong passion and feelings before getting married, which she could never feel for Gopal and the reason was unknown.

 Engaged Radha, and met Kanha outside Kirti coaching classes, where she was preparing for the banking –exam. She had not thought to get married even but it was just the wish of her parents that she had to live. How cruel the world seems when things do not happen according to our wishes.

 So now the preachers who themselves are living with the wish of getting fame and money would say`` Live spontaneously, have no wish, accept what comes your way. ‘’ It was told to her by Jagat jann_ni(the name of the character inspired by the movie P.K). Jagat-jan-ni was usually in red clothes and a big car was gifted to her by her followers. Radha`s family was a true devotee of Jagat Jan_jan-ni.  Radha would have readily accepted the wish of her parents and family members, till she met Kanha. Kanha touched her hand at the time he was just giving her notebooks which fell down from her hands, when she was returning hurriedly towards her house. That boy was seeking admission in Kirti coaching classes just that very day of their first meeting and touching of hands was just all of a sudden. Still, this touching led to a big disaster, which Radha could never even imagine. She went home and her body was under a current of passion. She was a live red hot iron. She was warm with infatuation. Her heart was skipping beats and she could listen and feel the sounds of her heartbeats clearly.

 People usually define infatuation is not love, but it is a really complex question and I have ready a full-length questionnaire for those who differentiate between infatuation and love. So let us forget the debate and continue with the story.

 Radha could not sleep and the whole night she was just brooding over that incident. It was not the first time she had been touched by a male hand, then why this ardent passion was hitting her today when she was engaged with Gopal. She again went to the coaching center and her eyes started moving in the dark of destitution. Her beautiful black eyes wanted to find a companion in isolation and she wanted to have just another meeting with that guy Suddenly she heard the same magical voice which was now converted to ``Excuse me’’ from the previous day`s ``Sorry’’. She turned and saw the same boy standing. She thought at the time`` he is my only love’’. He wanted to inquire from her about the reputation of the coaching center before taking admission and how she could say it ill-reputed because she wanted to be with him.

 He said, ``Hi, My name is Kanha, I am new to the city. Could you please guide me about the reputation of this coaching center and the way of teaching different faculty members?’’

She first hesitated and then answered, ``Oh ya why not? ‘’ And then she narrated all the best things of that educational institute, which existed or never ever existed. They both went towards a café and talked about their hobbies and interests.  She came back with a strange feeling and because there was no commitment, they both proceeded with exchanging notes, phone numbers, and books.

 Now this meeting was just usual. The boy was a stranger to that city and was living in PG for acquiring knowledge from that institute. Even though they both had told each other about their families and even talked to each other’s parents, still no commitment was made till three months. Radha was going to get married to Gopal the Next year and according to her family, a girl should never talk much to her fiancé before marriage, as it could lead to a physical reputation loss or loosing of chastity of a gal.

Why do we give this right to our sons that they can ruin anybody`s chastity but girls who are victims are not taught to fight with that deception. We fill them with abundant fears and they lose the power to brawl with the cruelties of the world. They even can’t recognize right and wrong, and then we tell them that they are a burden. We deny comprehending the fact that they can also have feelings. They should not have humane feelings, they should not have thoughts, and they should accept what we teach them.  We make them burdens; we create a line of difference. A boy can talk vulgarly with his friends but a girl if says the same thing then she is counted as a shameless idiot. About me people can say`` Oh shame- less lady writing such naked and vulgar things. ’’ I give a damn to this idiot thought.

 Moving towards this Love-deception tale-Radha met with Kanha`s mother in Dwarka-Delhi when her mother came to meet him at his PG. Radha was residing with her family in Dwarka-Delhi only. I am extremely sorry for telling it late that where she resided, but it was just that venue did not matter. There are four members in Radha`s family her father, her younger brother, and her mother; a small family happy family. Radha was a responsible girl; she was quite innocent as people say. Kanha was the only son of his parents, who were residing in the village of Shamgarh.  His mother came to meet him at his PG and he introduced Radha to her. Her mother was neither happy nor sad because she was told by her son that, in cities, girls are very much open-minded, they meet people and get closer to them even without having the intention of marriage. So his mother went back with contentment that her son has not tried to break their family tradition of having an arranged marriage and he was not spoilt but she also carried a notion in her mind, ``How clever are city gals they try to trap poor village boys?’’

Days passed like this and after three months the commitment was needed from Kanha's side to have sex with the girl. As Kanha knew that Radha was actually not clever and was in love with him, they both met at his PG to make their first meeting happen, when there was nobody. Radha and Kanha met because that time only the physical needs were compelling them to meet.

 Oh, I forgot, Radha should have disobeyed the craving for her body. She was so ill-mannered that she could not control her passions, idiot, but this advice is not for modern Kanha, he has the right to spoil the life of as many Gopis, by his choice.

 Kanha had to commit and say `Yes’ to her for marriage and Radha had thought that she would elope with Kanha. So now they had a talk with each other on the phone and were lost in a completely new world. At that time nobody would think what could be the future?

Now only forty-five days were left for Radha`s marriage and she insisted Kanha call his parents otherwise she would get married to some stranger for her whole life of hers.

Very tough, it is to define, who is a stranger to us? Who is right, who is wrong because people in this globe are derived by their own good or ill-motives. To cheat someone is also a kind of sin but it is only written in books and cheaters in this world are rewarded and victims are tormented. Dwarkadheesh Krishna, who was a symbol of eternal love can never be converted into a modern playboy and would never hurt anybody`s feeling

Now Kanha was not ready to take his responsibility and he had different aims. He could have simply told her but the step he took was really dangerous and was an action taken with impulsion and mind-less youth vigor. No doubt, his family's teachings gave him support in this dilemma.  He talked with a few of his friends and tried to solve his financial and love problems side by side. He told Radha to elope with him on a dark night and sold her like a commodity few thousand to a Sheik in Dubai. This was how Radha`s love was reciprocated by Kanha.  Radha could never return to her family after this and Kanha is staying in Shamgarh with his so-called respected wife and son.  He has sometime pangs of conscience but he answers it back loudly to his conscience, `` She was like that only, who could give her body to me could give to anyone.’’

 Radha now entertains every guest like a good host and a deception has ruined her life. Later when the real Lord will take revenge for this cheating is unknown but my heart says one day her cries will be heard and modern Kanha will be punished. She also had sometimes feeling of guilt by thinking`` I was engaged with Gopal, I cheated my parents and my fiancée and got this deception in return, so nobody is at fault, only I am responsible.

 Why her family did not teach her to fight back? Why she could not gather the courage to answer back because her family men had taught her`` A girl should never cross her boundaries otherwise God punishes her.’’

 We need to change this old story by making our girls able and our males sensible. Otherwise, the gals will remain a burden, Kanhas will remain play-boys and Radhas will be tormented by society.